Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Springs in the air........

Well it definately feels like Spring is coming. Hallelujah!!!! Today is my son Joseph's 6th birthday. It is amazing how fast time is going. I always promise myself that I am not going to let them have a party with friends over. Somehow, it always ends up happening. Luckily they only have a birthday once a year. I am getting really jealous. Marcia is going to Hawaii at the end of the month. I wonder if I could stow-away in her luggage. I can feel the seasons starting to change which in Idaho means that it goes from cold and snowy to moderately cold, snowy and WINDY!!!!! You've got to love our seasons. I have been given the assignment for Sharing Time on Sunday and everytime I approach the subject of Grandmothers, I have a crying jag. Last week I was doing okay. This week I am a watering faucet. I am basically an emotional wreck. The last thing that the kids in primary are going to need is seeing me bawling my head off. Hopefully I can get my emotions contained before Sunday or they might heaven forbid Release Me. All kidding aside, I hope and pray that I can do justice to the lesson about how my Extended family helps me.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

It's frustrating

I am getting surgery again next month April 13th. I really hope that this will fix the headache problems that I have been having. Tomorrow I get to go with my Aunt to find out if she has a form of Leukemia. I am not sure how I feel about this. It feels like things just keep getting piled on. Emotionally I am all over the place. Up one day, down the next. It was 4 months ago this week that my mother died. It seems for everyone else that time is going super fast. For me, it feels that it is in slow motion. I feel like I am walking and living under water and moving against the current. Things that used to take me minutes is now taking me hours. Things that used to be automatic are now not. Life isn't what it used to be that is for sure. Today is a pretty busy day, for me at least. I had my doctors appointment this morning, don't you just love hour long waits. Then he said that surgery would be the best option and that this time the chance of re-surgery is only 10%. I pray that he is correct and that this will be the solution I have been hoping for. Then at 1:00 I had to go help decorate the church for the Enrichment Relief Society Birthday party tonight at 7:00. Matthew fell off the stage, within the first 15 mintues and spend 20 minutes crying. Now I finally got Matthew down for his nap and pray that the kids are quiet when they get home so he gets a little rest. And truth be known I need the quiet time. I am really happy that I don't have to worry about my Chorister calling anymore. I still have 3 others so I am still busy. Life is getting scary. HBO is showing a series about Polygamy and they are having an episode that shows the temple ceremony and clothing. I think that this is in extremely poor taste and unfortunate that people find this entertaining. Hopefully things start to slow down and life gets easier. Yeah right!!!!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Time for change...

Well it is finally official. I was released from my Ward Chorister calling yesterday at church. It wasn't a big surprise because I asked to be released but, I have been doing it for 2 years now and was ready for a change. I have been finding it really difficult to get up in front of everyone on Sundays since the death of my mother. It probably has to do with the fact that she died on a sunday and I have entirely to much time to think about her on Sundays, so I am an emotional wreck by the time church comes around at 1:00 in the afternoon. I really have grown a lot in the calling. When I started it I would make myself physically ill before church and would get a giant knot in my stomach having to be in front of everyone. Now, being in front of everyone is much easier. I have 3 other callings right now. So, I can focus more on my Valiant 9 calling and Enrichment committee calling right now. I really appreciate my ward, they are definately going above and beyond in helping me deal with the loss of my mother and I appreciate it immensely. It takes difficult times to make you appreciate the people that are around you, the relationships you have become much more important. Friends become a lifeline. Life changes...the circle of life is in full force. My brother and his new wife are expecting at the end of October and that is very fitting, that will be the 1 year monumental mark that changed all our lives.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

It was lovely while it lasted

Well, the Destinations Inn was absolutely wonderful. They present you with a bottle of Sparkling Cidar on ice in your room, along with 2 pieces of Cheesecake in the fridge upon check in. In the morning they bring Fruit and Yogurt parfaits, and 2 warm Cinnamon rolls along with your choice of 2 different beverages. It is really a great retreat we stayed in the Alaska room with the cabin style room and rocked tub surround. This is second stay there in the past year, the Athens rooms was amazing also. Our plan for next year is the Paris suite, you can shower under the Eiffel Tower. I am getting excited this week the snow really started melting and the sun was actually shining I finally got to take the plastic off my big living room window so I can finally see out of it again. Things are always crazy, today while doing laundry my dryer wouldn't turn on and I can't figure out what is wrong with it. I have to go get our monthly groceries tonight so that we can actually eat what I have planned for the rest of the week. Ugh!!! I hate grocery shopping. It was a great weekend, now back to reality, what a bummer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!