Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Another day........

I have been dreading this week with a passion since November 9th. I don't know why but it really is getting to me that this week is the 6 month mark of when my mom died and it also just happens to be the week of Mother's Day. I have been really hoping that I would be coping better with the loss, but apparently it isn't to be. Along with my mother it was this time last year that my Grandma Pratt passed away. Sometimes it just seems so surreal at times that this past year is just a really really long awful dream. I really wish it were. This week I can definately feel the emotions are really raw and close to the surface. I still find myself going to pick up the phone and wanting to talk to my mom and have her make the pain go away by making me laugh it off. I wish I were more like her and wake up saying "I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful" or "I feel excellent bordering on the spectacular." I have come to the conclusion that life is sometimes not what you're expecting, that telling those around you that you love and appreciate them, that friends are a blessing and that true compassion and charity is the most amazing gift you can give to someone. I can only hope and pray that I can influence people like my mother did.


  1. You are such an influence for good in my life. Thank you for your words about what truly matters. Hang in there.

  2. Emily
    I just want you to know how much you inspire me to do what is right. You are so much more like mom than you think. I love and appreciate you more than words could ever say.


  3. Aunt Emily,
    I feel the same way all the time. That everything bad were a terrible dream, but you have influenced more thna you think. Which is funny because that's my goal in life, I always try to help others and impact them in someway. I'll keep staying strong, as long as you do. I know you can hang in there, even though now it is rough. It ought to get at least a little easier later on.
    I love you, and you definitely inspire me. I will make the right choices no matter what anyone thinks of me. So, I don't want you to worry.
    I hope all is well.

    your niece,
    Mackenzie (:

  4. Emily, you have been so helpful and special to me. You kept me from having a complete nervous breakdown when I found out I was pregnant and started thinking about all the wonderful things to worry about. You have been a wonderful inspiration to me as a mother and sister. I really appreciate all the advice and caring that you've given to me. I hope that we grow closer as the years go on, and I know that things will become easier in time.

    Love you,